Dear the few who will ever read this,

Today is kind of my second full day in this new bustling beautiful city. While all of that seems exciting, and it is, trust me. I still cannot get my head out of the clouds. Every time I get to the next square I can't wait for the one after that. Why not just enjoy my square for  a little bit. Its almost like I embrace change so much that I can't stand to be in any square. This is not necessarily a good thing, why? Because I can't always enjoy my present moment, im too excited and anxious for the next. Balance. For a little while I want to be afraid to step out of my little invisible square box and be afrid of the change, instead of being so afraid of the present.

Example,

I am unemployed Why again? Well, I worked throughout college. Now, don't think it is impressing it really wasn't. I can't slow down very well. I had to work to maintain sanity between studying and a social life that was more work than college. I mean that in the most best but saddening way possible. I was driven by friends, they almost controlled me. Most times I couldn't wait for work, that is until it was time to work than I got sad I was missing out. See, head in the clouds, never fully concentrated on what I am doing in the present. Back to my example. I quit my job when I moved to the city after graduating. I always thought I would get my dream job that paid millions and I would help society but be well off all at the same time, like Oprah. In reakity I know that is not how it is done, but still this shit is harder than I expected! And, apparently working in restaurant jobs and playing college soccer with a diploma is NOT experience. Who knew? Well, my dad came to visit to keep my spirits up and help me get a car. What a guy right? Anyway, he stayed at a cute little INN down the street and I jokingly asked the lady working if they had any openning. Turns out they did for part time and guess who got it right away? So here, I am getting calls from insurance agaencies to be a sales lady. No way!

Finish this story later. I gotta go be morally and physically irresponsible.

Till lata,

daydreamerinthecit (not so city in a bit)